All Great Art is Created from Suffering

poetry moment

2005-09-19T18:07:08Z

Apon sleepless nights
the cold winds spoke
Cities of darkness
gathered in dreams

I lied alone
that moonless evintide
alone and not alive

my body numbed
my mind, demised
all that remained
were the whispers

the dead moon fell
and brough about an arisen sun
the hope returned
the dark descended

this blind awakening
bittersweet to me
My eyes can now see
I have been given a new day
a new beginning

dee_love_metal @ 2005-08-09T16:06:00

2005-08-09T23:07:57Z

hey jobo, how was alaska? or are you still there? everythings going well with me. you need to hang out with chris and i one day again. we still owe you big time. can't wait til the big costco day.

dee_love_metal @ 2005-07-12T17:57:00

2005-07-13T00:57:34Z

I am sick. i got home from work and collapsed into a sleepytime coma. i think i wont go to work tomarrow.

dee_love_metal @ 2005-07-04T13:54:00

2005-07-04T20:54:59Z

Happy fourth of july everyone. i haven't written in livejournal in ages. so this is my entry.hope all is well with everybody.bye

dee_love_metal @ 2005-06-23T08:20:00

2005-06-23T15:19:50Z

going to graduation and working at grad nite was fun. Reeko it was so great to see you!

dee_love_metal @ 2005-06-06T18:22:00

2005-06-07T01:22:26Z

jobo we gotta plan something soon. surely i must see you before your little trip. im so happy my little jobo is graduating and is all grown up.

botiam

2005-04-08T04:33:26Z

i went on a hot date with Christoff, wat a love bird. And yes, i guess i do owe you jolene. it was pretty romantic. we had the most bodom time ever and he even played me some opethian tunes while overlooking the lovely lake of satan and lust. Oh yah, it was apocalyptical.

dee_love_metal @ 2005-04-01T19:39:00

2005-04-02T03:39:30Z

Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

to jobo

2005-03-30T17:23:30Z

oh jobo. you must tell me when i can give music trader my crappy ass cds that i hate. i have a good few. they are DEAD to me. especialy this stupid bloodhound gang cd i got when i was brainless in life. STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks!

dee_love_metal @ 2005-03-28T09:37:00

2005-03-28T17:40:57Z

aww jolene, that was so nice of you to call me back! you always do! its such a great feeling to know my calls are important to you. I was going to be in escondido today but it looks like ill have to be in the ghetto area by my self. o well..life is life. bye.

spit on humans

2005-03-17T23:52:37Z

Today i went to the park and i looked at clouds. This one cloud looked like an old mans face. It was very eerie, and yet.. intriguing.Yesterday in anthropology, we watched another movie on chimpanzees and it made me sad because they are such adorable creatures and people just slaughter them like savages. I can't stop thiking about how sad that is. Us humans are heartless sometimes. We destroy the lives of all these animals in the world, and we take away their homes.

dee_love_metal @ 2005-03-15T13:47:00

2005-03-15T21:48:23Z

Dear Jolene,
i called u again cuz u told me to. and again, u pickethed not the phone. what the fuck. i think that was a last straw. good one joboca.
- ur new enemy

Tobi is hot

2005-03-12T23:55:36Z

Today was a no-fun saturday. I have been studying since 10:30 this morning. During a break though, i went with my mom to petco and we went shopping for my tobicakes. we got her allt hese fun things and best of all...a NEW NECKLACE! her old one was pink with a little bell but this new one is beyond hot. its black with gold and rhinestones on it. its totaly dimmu. That is one hot cat I have.

DEH!!!

2005-03-10T19:58:58Z

Id like to thank jolene for not calling me back.

so i ended up going to Great Clips to get a hair cut. umm what can i say. i was not satisfied. the lady was rude and combed my ears and nose off. she told me my hair was fried and that i should buy this million dollar product to fix the problem. i have to go study.

u betcha

2005-03-07T23:55:07Z

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lovely saturday

2005-03-05T18:25:01Z

today i get to watch a funpacked educational film about gorillas. i cannot wait. i think it would be more fun if the people going to clas today were about my age. but no, they are like thirty five, maybe a random fifty year old too. i am the only teen aged representative going to this anthropology torture.

Anita, if you read this in seventy years (when u go on livejournal), thank you for thine orange county mints and a good time yesternight. its always fun no matter the obstacles. =)and i hope you have an enlightening experience at irvine.

Animal- last nite i had a dream about a roly poly on my bed. im not too sure how i feel about that but ok. i know theres more of them hiding somewhere in my room. i can feel their satanic spirits floating around, blood thirsty as can be.

i will conclude this lovely journal entry with a poem .....

walking through bathroom
in divinity seek
my sad sad leafs
intrigued bodies

sir leper
and his two feet
sit side by side on apriocot breath
fresh baby for lunch

so tuesday
i speak full salamander in speach
my heart thoth end now
in sad tinky wink

mister sammy
and rainbow hick
see me run! see my fly!
calculators of death.

dee_love_metal @ 2005-03-01T18:23:00

2005-03-02T02:37:48Z

Right now im going to wash my hair.

Church

2005-02-27T03:01:11Z

Today was a pretty nice saturday. I studied a little and then we had alovely little family bonding day sorta. I went shopping with aimee and i got New Earrings~! Then i decided to make my parents happy and go to church. while the priest was busy flapping his gums about some "gospel", I pondered about my life and what i was goign to do with a whole hour of free time tomarrow since i didn't have to go to church. Also, i thought about the normal shagrathian jesusy thoughts and i even thought about ways of re-decorating our living room.

church is never a waste of time.

GEORGIA

2005-02-21T00:00:41Z

on this carnivorous day of the sabbath, i went with my friend "Animal" and family to see ................. CONSTANTINE! best movie ever. ana, i think you'd secretly like it. well maybe not. but watever! gotta luv demons n gooooobers!
later on i shall babysit. im a twinkle bit excited because these two kids are funny and they make me say ha ha ha. last time i went, one of the kids started rolling this fucking watermellon around the house and i was like DUDE stop it. and then he just kept stealing it from kitchen and so i snatched it from him and hid it in a cupbard when he wasn't looking. that little beast! so funny though. they have cake and treats in the fridge though..mmmm...tempTaTioNNnnnnsss......

i wish i could figure out my mp3 player. stupid piece of mierda. i surrender.

YAGADAHOE

2005-02-20T04:20:51Z

Anita, this poem is dedicated to you, in order to show my true feelings of proudidness and loveitude towards you.

OH SELF...
you look like moon
fresh glow
mourn
thine crisp sunday
day oh the sabbath
i pick fine posey

with day at nigh
and death and peach
i slowly die.......

into fine fine leaf
morning dew
turns to blood
and all the dead arise
greet the living

your fresh face
which reeks of saturn
and eyes which speak like fine hoobles

we part.
my heart , heavy with monsterious pride
for thou hath scoredth 100% on driving test
oh!
this nigh....
OH ...this nigh....

my lonely prince is death himself.

i hope you liked it!

Day of Wrath

2005-02-20T03:54:29Z

today was complete bothamity. i woke up and i got in a fight with my mom because i didn't want to go to this party tonight. Then, i stayed home and i studied, basicaly for hours off n on. my brothers fiance Angie came over and we had a nice heartfelt chat about all sorts of lovie dovie stuff. Mysteriously i got in this MUST PAINT mood, so i thought to myself " hmm where to paint cuz i dont have any more canvi!!?" and then i pulled this wooden panel from under my bed and used that and i painted it and its a gorgeous red n yellow sunset now. im very happy with it and im glad for myself.

blueberries

2005-02-16T01:08:12Z

i ate some blueberries today and when i looked in the mirror after, my mouth was dark dark blue and so were my teeth. it was nasty. i did'nt know blueberries stained your mouth that bad. i looked like i had a mouth disease.

dee_love_metal @ 2005-02-11T18:48:00

2005-02-12T02:53:51Z

Last night i had a crazy dream. abunch of my friends and I were in escondido trying to find where jolene lives but we were unsuccesful so we went to a restaurant and got a free cake cuz the old lady was nice. Then, i came back to my house and i saw that the whole entire neighborhood had changed and everyone had a giant mansion. our house was regular mansion but my neighbors house was like a ...CASTLE slash AMUSEMENT PARK slash OLD TOWN, and we walked into it and saw how weird and big it was. there was exhibits and food and games and a million people in her house. Then, i went back to my house aand there was this big party going on and i met this guy but i didn't find out his name for a while. I guess we started going out or something, we were really close and then i read some article about him in the newspaper and it said his name was Michael. So Michael and i went to the amusment park next door and had a great time. Randomly, someone had lit a store in mira mesa on fire and half of mira mesa was gone, including my gym. that gave me a great feeling cuz i hate going to the gym and now i had da beautiful excuse to not go. Michael was dreamy. i wonder if he exists. probably not.

the library is a very eerie place.

2005-02-06T03:56:05Z

so i went to the library today and when i got there i noticed there was this loud little kid party going on in this "party room" w a little porch thing sticking out of library. how odd. i mean most parents would be like "oh yah, alright chucky cheese n stuff for bdays" but ..library? wow. they must have good rates or something. GOOD rates. i know i dont think i woulda had my bday at the library when i was little. or now.
so all the kids were making a great deal of noise and stuffing face w cake n wat not. and all the dad's were outside the library drinking beer from some guys keg in a car. lol. it was kinda funny. kids are exhausting.

blasphemy.

Oh, so much sorrow

2005-02-03T21:52:56Z

I am sad because my classes are mainly bad. well i mean all are ok exept for anthropology. there was ONE jesus in that class, but then he was trying to add in and he just got up and left. WHY ME????? gosh. it is so boring and full of shit to do and i have so much homework. i can see CLEARLY that once i get a job, iwill have ZERO percent life left. zero. this is agonizing. o well i hope everyone else had a good day! =)